stuck inside a square box
tumbling, rolling, out of control
hard the sides that are hit
objects whirling all around
suddenness, unexpected, chaos
yet it sits at home in the soul
sharpened, pointing, taunting
they are out for blood, hunting
weary the heart they aim for
a heart fighting to thrive
it's tools and weapons scatter
will the soul find them
find release from the box
Written November 2023
In the silence the noise comes running.
Piercing, unexpected stampede crashing,
breaking, pushing, finding a way in.
Deafening the silence. Fighting. Winning
the battle. The silence. Oh the silence,
crowding out the noise invading. Battles.
Raging confusion coming to break
that silence in which peace dwells. Safety.
What is safety? Noise claims the game.
Silence pushes back, hard, unassuming;
it’s power matched with noise. Deafening.
Silence, noise: both come surging, fighting,
Tired. Crumbling. Chaos ensuing. Reach,
for that peace that survives, hidden, afraid.
Afraid of the peace. What is silence?
What of the noise? Is it just confusion,
the thing that makes whole, pure confusion?
Battling. Silence. Battling. Noise. Battling.
Life left losing. Peace, it is forever hiding.
Written 5/24, just before midnight
Like water falling down to the earth
So, too, from eyes thus streaming
Water flowing, the source breaking
A rumbling felt to the very core
Flashes blinding your vision
All the same, giving light to dark
The rushing, the tension, the chaos
Beating, pouring forth with no end
Fallen to the ground looking upward
Mixed are the rain and the tears
Brokenness loud, brokenness silent
Hidden within yet poured, seen
Washed away and still left broken
Scattered, found in the passing
Left to be healed, created anew
*written moments before posting*
What is it, Lord, that even as I run,
I am found clinging to you?
Though darkness is in my heart,
a light is shining through.
The desires of my flesh
succumbing to your holy way.
When the battle rages on,
find me on my knees to pray.
As the chaos fights to be let in,
my shield and my hope you will be.
The enemy stands not a chance;
it is you, Lord, that sets me free.
During Adoration 2-19-23
The earth trembles below me
Darkness pursues my heart
An immense war rages on
And my weakness emerges
Without you I crumble
Consumed by eternal chaos
I struggle to reach for you
Crushed by the weight
A light flickers far off
What feels unreachable
Break the bonds that hold
Please come get me
I fear the black hole
Looming at every turn
Don’t let me give up
Stop me from running away
Before hope abandons me
How I long for your embrace
Warmth to shut out cold
Calm the trembling
Be my whole strength
Purify the hidden tears
I’m lost and broken apart
Wandering the barren wilderness
Water nowhere to be found
Quench my parched soul
From myself I need saving
To be held together
As I crumble apart
When the evil one knocks
Lock temptation’s door
Guide my every thought
I need you in my life
It’s my only way to thrive
The only path to joy
My only way out of darkness
I’m scared and falling
Break down my steel walls
Win the war for my soul
During Adoration 2/12/23
Grace-Filled Hope 